to fall into slumber and an hour later, to wake up, sitting up straight, feeling terrified, heavy breathing, cold sweat, eyes-widened and looking round the room wondering if this is a dream or not.
Heart pumping so fast, you press your chest to try to calm yourself down. Then you check your phone’s whatsapp, those one word replies from the ice queen and realized it isn’t a dream.
It really happened. I was played.
Every time I fall asleep, the same thing happens. I awake frightened and disorientated. Sobbing silently.
What did I do to deserve this cruel joke.
How can someone play with the emotions of another human being, without feeling any bit of remorse or guilt. So cold-hearted. I never saw it coming.
Meeting you today, and when you causally mentioned “you cried so much?” It felt like an arrow shot through my heart. Yes, of course I cried so much because I actually believed there was love between us. Yet you managed to just respond nonchalantly with “you’ll find someone else”.
“Everyone has their weak spot. The one thing that, despite your best efforts, will always bring you to your knees, regardless of how strong you are otherwise.”—Sarah Dessen (via onlinecounsellingcollege)